I officially finished my study and graduated two weeks ago. I am not happy though just a feel of relief. I realized that I do not like my study and the future of it.There is only one thing I wish I knew 4 years a go that I need to do a lot of research and see what kind of job environment that I love before I further my study. It was a waste of time and now I do not know what to do.
It was a though 4 years in my life I learned a lot about this world, especially this particular group. Friendship does not mean that you need to have 12 people in a group, wear same clothes or even have a group name, since I assume all of us have grown up and going to reach 25 year old soon. How I see this group is that, eventhough they made statements that they are united and miss each other, actually they despise each other.
I once talked to one of the members and asked;
"What is the purpose of this group?"
She said;
"Just to gossip about people, I do not even like some of my group members"
I was shocked. Is this what you define friendship?
I find it is hard to find true friends and I love to keep my circle small. I hate negativity. I only found 2 best friends during my UNI life. We do not talk about our personal lives that often or even talk about people but I love the way when we see each other. We keep on educating each other about current situations, we find common things between us and never hate each other instead we understand each other's characters.
When you get older, you realize that having negative people around you won't give you any benefit. ANY! Having close friends, knowing their characters and be there through thick and thin define your friendship.
I do not need to have the same dress with them or have an official name of our group. I just need to know that my friends are just my friends.
I wish I have a nice UNI experience but it is not meant for me. Might be one day I will find my that experience again.
